Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in forgotten_smbd's LiveJournal:

Monday, October 3rd, 2005
11:09 pm	thoughts i feel some kinda frustration and disappointment in myself.. i found out that my position in this life my wishes for doing smth and my wishes to have smth are very different except that, i figured out that i can concentrate myself on anything that i choose as my main goal to achieve and my main thing to do in life when i'm trying to get deeply into something even mentally (in imagination) i start perfectly understand that i don't care don't interested, that i'm not into it as much as it's necessary i'm lost i can't give everything up and forget about myself till i die but i'm beginning understand that i can't do most of things that i need, to achieve the life that i wanna live so i should do, invent smth, smth that'll help me i believe that there ARE some ways in this fucking world to feel organically and harmonious even for me Current Mood: confused Current Music: lords of acid (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
3:01 pm	fhjkl;[pojihju (Comment on this)
2:56 pm	asdfghjkl; (Comment on this)
2:45 pm	something do not work out ...can't figure out what's not right i wrote 2 posts already but i don't see anything Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
2:32 pm	weak as i am. i'm listening to this song of k's choice & skin... there is an awful wind outside today and i'm sitting alone with my sharp pain in the heart... Current Mood: blah Current Music: k's choice (Comment on this)
2:24 pm	here i am. not sure in what i exactly want from this place/ but.. anyway, i wanted some new secret place to hide my feelings and thoughts to write 'em down . to be myself without thinking of what ppl do with my feelings, how could they use 'em or how could they hurt me. i wanna have my little lost world Current Mood: cold Current Music: panacea (Comment on this)